I’ve tried a lot of jobs in my life and I consider myself as an experienced woman that knows her stuff. I didn’t always choose the best thing for me but I consider those “mistakes” parts of my life that I’m proud of. I’m not that old in age but I do think that I have an old soul. Stop rolling your eyes, this is not just another millennial telling you that she found the secret to happiness and it lies within. Although, that is definitely true.
I’m happy I lived all the bad experiences, because I went through them and overcame them. I think that built me up to be a stronger person and yes, I do understand how cliché that sounds but you can’t make these things up, they’re facts of life.
The perfect dad is going to show me how he’s been such a good slave and kept the plug on all day, the football player with hundreds of girls running after him is going to have a small penis humiliation fetish … and your daughter’s principal is going to ask me to dress like a schoolgirl and act like I’ve been naughty.
The best decision I ever made, though, was to start camming. Yes, that sounds cliché also, but let me tell you my story. I was always the star. Everywhere, in school, in my group of friends, at my house and in my family, I would always put on a show for everyone to see.
I love being watched while I perform. But I’ve always hated having a co-star. I’ve always loved sex and I am very body-positive: I love my body, my curves, my hair and my smile. So obviously, after I heard what cam modeling is about, I jumped right on the opportunity.
Being a cam girl has now taught me so much about life, men, relationships, not taking things for granted, who I am and how to be the best version of myself, unapologetically. Oh, sorry. I forgot to introduce myself. I’m Ivy Aryah. I would also tell you my heritage but I don’t quite know it.
You see, I was adopted and from that, I have no idea what or who the people that conceived me are. And that’s absolutely amazing. Because I had the possibility of creating myself fully. I grew up in an incredible family of seven people, all different races and all brought there together by a common thing called “love.” I grew up dancing, singing and learning new languages, so now I speak four.
Being given the liberty and opportunity to grow as free as I wanted or needed to be, being happy and never feeling like something is holding me back, helped me tremendously.
Now, my goal is to become an even more amazing person. How and what does that have to do with being a cam model? Everything! The thing that people don’t know about cam modeling is that it teaches you so much about yourself. It shows you what’s real, more than anything else.
You see, when you’re protected by a nickname and an internet connection, you’re allowed to be yourself, to show your real you. Not how society wants you to be, not how your parents raised you to be (they’ve raised a freak, BTW!), not how you act in front of your friends and lovers.
The best thing and why I love this job is that it made me understand people so much better than before. It’s opened a new world for me, in which I am the star and the psychologist as they come in to see me put on a show for them, but at the same time come to me for advice, to talk, to spend time with someone that will actually understand their freaky side without the fear that they can be discovered.
What I’ve actually realized is that as much as I like to put on a show for everyone to see and as much as they like to put on a show in real life, once they click that yellow “Start Private” button on Jasmin the masks come off.
The big corporate guy is going to love to be tickled, the perfect dad is going to show me how he’s been such a good slave and kept the plug on all day, the football player with hundreds of girls running after him is going to have a small penis humiliation fetish, that nerdy guy is going to tell me to call him “daddy” and your daughter’s principal is going to ask me to dress like a school girl and act like I’ve been naughty.
I can’t stress enough how much this job has helped me realize how people are in real life, behind their masks and how much it has helped me from not judging anyone.
If anything, I am thankful I’m a cam model because it opened my eyes in every way it counts! It’s where I’m meant to be. I might not have known the people that made me but I’m proud to say I know how I made myself, and that’s the most important thing.